Nikhil Dev

How does it feel when you love someone so very much that you think only about her when you are drunk, suddenly starts ignoring you. As if you dint exist and not important anymore. Like it really doesn’t matter if you are alive or dead. These things are something always on my mind. When the only one I ever loved so much treats me like the most useless shit. I mean where has all that affection gone. I agree I was an assole sometimes but that was reasons that I am she knows and I can justify. But why is it that without no reason this sudden change happens.

I still remember Manish once telling me. That someone had told him that there is nothing called love but just lust. The fact is that people make these conclusion after experience. If not, then why do you have so many guys thinking the same. Thats cos we’ve been through shit and we know how it feels. Dont ever say that we have changed. We’ve said the same thing centuries and would still stick to the same.

Maybe I was overexpectant and maybe just too stupid and lost in love to not get the point early on. I took the fall and it hurts really bad. This is something that cannot feel.

Anyway, I think I need to start accepting the well proven fact over centuries. THERE IS NOTHING CALLED LOVE. ITS JUST LUST