Nikhil Dev

Its been a really long time that I have thought of blogging again seriously. I have been kept a lot busy all these days. So was not able to blog that often. But surely would be able to get back to normal as it is the end of the quarter and all my goals are achieved.

I am getting a lot more forgetful these days. Just not able to remember all the small things that I need to do. So I have decided that coming this monday, I would start maintaining a notebook where I would manually note all the things that I wanna do, people I wanna call and just anything that I want to remember.

Also found that I have been drinking a lot these days. I am not sure why but I tried looking into myself and get that lonely feeling sometimes. I sometimes need someone to listen to me and understand, someone who is my type. I so much miss Hem these days cos although she is not my sister by birth, she has fulfilled all the responsibilities of one. She has been with me in my tough times and just when I thought that no one understood me. I am this jackass kinda guy from outside, but honestly, no one has tried to peek inside me. I am completely different and I know that. Just that I would not like to show the sad part of me out. Maybe thats the reason I am drinking a lot these days. I think I seriously need to find a solution to that.

These are so many unfulfilled things that I would like to do. Want to have some more money than I have now. Want to be know in the society for something. Want to be famous and known as a good man. All I want to have is see myself up there.