Nikhil Dev

Not many have seen the real me. Just too many things to handle and too few things that I can do for others. I know that I am blessed with what it takes, but something inside me tells me that I am an assole. Just unable to keep any one happy. Mom complains that I do not spend enough time. Work demands are high and career is important as well. I dont waste my time on anything else. Just persuing my passions of music and computing. Sometimes this makes me feel that it is so much better to be just alone in this world with now dependencies. I am totally pissed off with how the past 12 hours have been. I am not a person who just gives up to easy solutions as others resort to by killing themselved. There are solutions to every problem in the world, but just that everyone needs some support to finding them.

My principles, my sayings all seem BULLSHIT. Why am I turning out to be this assole that I never wanted to be? I remember someone asking me to think twice before saying something, but just that Nikhil does think a lot, but there are so many things to think about that I just cant think anymore. I am living a zombie life honestly.